Disability and mental health transcripts

David:

00:00-00:01

How do you feel about your disability?

Able:

00:02 – 00:52

Um I feel. I feel sort of lucky in the way that I’m actually sort of survived sort of It… at that age if you don’t if you don’t if you didn’t have cut… if I was if I was a little older it wouldn’t it wouldn’t affect me how it did. So yeah kind of lucky in that way. Yeah.

Jan:

00:56 – 01:00

How does it, how does being in a wheelchair affect your life?

David:

01:00-01:02

How does being in a wheelchair affect your life?

Able:

01:03 – 01:34

Being in. Being in a wheelchair affects my life. So, it affects me in other ways. Those stairs? No. Um. I, I, yeah.

Jan:

01:34-01:36

Do you use public transport?

Able:

01:37 – 01:48

I, I, I I use public transport a lot, so that’s quite handy. Buses and trains, they have ramps and stuff, so that’s handy and stuff.

Jan:

01:49 – 01:52

Do you have support when you use public transport?

David:

01:52 – 01:56

Do you use support, supporting on the train?

Able:

01:57-02:18

I do have support on public transport? Ye- I used to, but not now. But not now. I do it all in independently. I’ve got a bus pass so I’m alright now yeah. Yeah

Jan:

02:18 – 02:21

Do you have any problems when you use the buses?

David:

02:21-02:23

Do you have any problems with the buses?

Able:

02:23 – 02:49

Not really. The one thing is with buses they only allow one wheelchair on. That’s the only thing. But funny thing is, one bus driver let me on when there was another wheelchair on. So I had to go in the pram space. Pram space. Quite funny, that.

Angela:

00:00-00:05

I had to go in Lynfield Mount me brain took poorly. February 19th of February.

Paula:

00:06-00:07

Long time ago, want it.

Angela:

00:07-00:18

I had to go in hospital. Me psychiatrist, Dr Annan that bring me. He had to put me in hospital. He said I had a poorly brain and I had to go to hospital. He had no choice but to admit me in hospital for my brain being poorly.

Paula:

00:17-00:19

About 9 year ago, want it?

Angela:

00:19-01:16

Yeah. And then you got two. I’m under mental health, you know, mental health people at Beldean Road offices. That’s where they work. Two mental health women come out for me. And erm two paramedics, the one what drived it, but about ambulances and the other paramedic, helped me with me suitcase. They told him to pack a suitcase for me to take. Put me clothes in it take the hospital and they asked, the asked to see for me  tablets out of the cupboard, they took my tablets to the hospital. Nurses give me tablets when I were there. Dr Annan psychiactric nurses, they give me me tablets. I had to take me money with me and my cigarettes with me. And the one thing about Dr. Annan, me  psychiatrist, I don’t mind saying this about him, he said he said, ‘The staff may give you five cigarettes in the morning and then the staff give you five in the afternoon, but I will only let you have one. I said, you’re a stingy psychiatrist. I said, I want another one. He said, well, I’ll give you two, but I’m not giving you five like the bungalow give you staff.

Scott:

00:00-00:02

Did you have really good friends growing up?

Barry:

00:03-00:40

Yeah, well, some and er. Oh yeah, and. One of them, or a few of them said, erm said, oh yeah, what darling? That they said the all the er rude names for me. Did the all the rude names for me.

Scott:

00:40-00:41

Oh, you had games?

Barry:

00:41-00:42

Yes, yeah.

Charlotte:

00:41-00:42

Rude names.

Scott:

00:43-00:44

Rude names?

Barry:

00:44-00:44

Yeah

Scott:

00:44-00:47

What was your rude name? Do you remember?

Charlotte:

00:47-00:49

People called. Were calling him rude names.

Scott:

00:49-00:50

Oh, they called you rude names.

Barry:

00:50-00:50

Yeah.

Scott:

00:51-00:52

That’s not nice, is it?

Barry:

00:53-00:53

No.

Scott:

00:53-00:55

They’re not friends then, are they?

Barry:

00:55-01:02

No, no, no. And what it was was Barry with a chicken bone arm.

Scott:

01:03-01:03

Barry.

Barry:

01:03-01:04

With a chicken bone arm.

Scott:

01:04-01:06

Chicken bone arm?

Barry:

01:06-01:07

On this side.

Scott:

01:07-01:10

Okay, is that because of your disability, Barry?

Barry:

01:10-01:14

Yeah, but I don’t want. I don’t want to be disabled anymore.

Scott:

01:14-01:15

No, understandable.

Barry:

01:15-01:19

Because I want to be much, much better.

Alex:

00:00-00:04

What’s the hardest time in your life as an adult so far?

Graham:

00:05-00:09

It’s about my Down’s disability.

Alex:

00:10-00:15

Yeah. How did you get through it?

Graham:

00:16-00:17

Be alright

Alex:

00:18-00:25

Okay. What. So what is. What is your learning difficulty?

Graham

00:28-00:28

So

Alex:

00:28-00:31

What, what, what was your learning difficulty?

Graham:

00:31-00:36

Hard of hearing and speech impediment.

Alex:

00:38-00:51

Right. What was the. What was the best place or advice you’ve ever been given?

Graham:

00:55-01:00

Best place keep fighting,  just be yourself and carry on what you’re doing.

Alex:

01:04-01:10

Yeah. What. What do you love the most about yourself?

Graham:

01:12-01:21

I think getting the job with United Response. And I did them maths and English. I got a certificate out of it.

Alex:

01:22-01:22

Cool.

Graham:

01:23-01:24

Two years.

Alex:

01:27-01:31

Yeah. Is there anything you would like to change about your life?

Graham:

01:35-01:37

No. Never.

Scott:

00:00-00:06

Did your mum and dad like treat you okay with your disability? Did they help you to understand?

Jason:

00:07-00:18

Well, from what I know, when I was born, my part of my DNA was missing.

Jackie:

00:18-00:20

Do you know what your disabil-?

Jason:

00:20-00:21

It was a chromosome.

Jackie:

00:22-00:24

Do you know what your disability is called?

Jason:

00:24-00:25

William’s Syndrome.

Scott:

00:25-00:28

And could you explain what that is?

Jason:

00:28-01:00

It’s basically a chromosome that went missing that makes it hard for me to form relationships with people, especially females. It makes it hard for me to have a girlfriend. And to to kind of keep that relationship going, and that’s what my illness does. And.

Jackie:

01:00-01:04

And it makes you over sociable as well doesn’t it?

Jason:

01:05-01:06

Yeah, I can

Jackie:

01:06-01:06

Because you like chatting, don’t you?

Jason:

01:06-01:13

I can get a bit over the top sometimes and I don’t mean any harm by that.

Scott:

01:13-01:14

No, of course not.

Jason:

01:15-01:22

Not to anyone. I’m just a sort of happy-go-lucky guy.

Jackie:

01:20-01:24

Yeah. And you like talking to people, don’t you?

Jason:

01:24-01:25

And I do, yeah,

Scott:

01:25-01:26

There’s nothing wrong with that.

Jason:

01:25-01:31

I can yack for hours about anything. I’m a big talker usually.

Scott:

01:31-01:31

It’s ok.

00:00-00:01

What do you do on a Friday?

Lewis:

00:01-00:24

Friday now, this is good. So on a Friday I get up at my mum’s. We have breakfast at Tesco’s, then I go to Dunelm and then go back to Mum’s for tea, then I go to athletics. My favourite person to be with in athletics is Dan.

00:25-00:27

What breakfast do you like to eat at Tesco’s?

Lewis:

00:27-00:38

The breakfast, including sausage, bacon, beans, baked beans that is, hash browns and sourdough toast.

00:38-00:44

What is best event at athletics? What is your best event at athletics?

Lewis:

00:44-00:54

I got two. Javelin and 100 meters. Our first ever person who won the 100 meters is Harry.

00:59-01:00

Have you ever won?

Lewis:

01:01-01:07

For the first time ever in the Javelin, I won first place.

01:08-01:09

Well done.

Scott:

00:00-00:08

What kind of advice would you give to someone else who is going through the same struggles or similar struggles of self-harming and suicide attempts?

Michelle:

00:08-00:16

Oh, I’ll give them the understanding that they need and the reassurance that’s.

Scott:

00:17-00:20

To talk to someone, to get the understanding that they need.

Michelle:

00:18-00:21

Yeah, yeah. And get the help they need.

Scott:

00:22-00:24

In a safe environment for them.

Michelle:

00:23-00:24

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Scott:

00:25-00:27

Bring people in to let people in.

Michelle:

00:28-00:33

Yeah. Because it took me a while to get the help that I needed.

Scott:

00:33-00:39

It’s a powerful story, what you’ve gone through. And you’ve come out of it and you’ve done fantastically well, Michelle.

Michelle:

00:39-00:40

Thank you.

Scott:

00:40-00:45

Even to admitting that to someone you don’t know like myself and to Charlotte.

Michelle:

00:45-00:50

I’m not, I used to be embarrassed about it all, you know.

Scott:

00:50-00:52

But that’s how far you’ve come now, see?

Michelle:

00:52-02:04

And be ashamed of what I did and to my kids. At the time I wasn’t thinking clearly then and I’m thinking when I woke up I thought oh my gosh, I am here. Then I’ll go and do it again but three times in a row. Then self-harming and doing stuff to myself. And I remember when the social worker, his name’s Keith Turner, and he, I missed the day with my son by accident. I thought it was a day, like Tuesday. And I spoke to the health visitor and she said, no Michelle, I’m seeing Jake tomorrow, you supposed to have seen Jake today. So I ran back home, rung him up and he yelled down the phone at me. He literally yelled at me. So I went in next door and I cut my arms.

Scott:

02:06-02:09

I think it’s fantastic how you can move forward from that and.

Michelle:

02:09-02:09

Yeah

Scott:

02:10-02:13

Someone on mental health week to hear your story

Michelle:

02:13-02:13

Yeah.

Scott:

02:13-02:15

and for what you say to get out there is

Michelle:

02:15-02:15

Yeah.

Scott:

02:15-02:18

Inspiring to anyone that will

Michelle:

02:18-02:18

Yeah.

Scott:

02:18-02:23

Hear it. Thank you for everything you told us today.

Michelle:

02:23-02:23

Thank you.

Lewis:

00:00-00:05

What’s been one of the hardest things in your life?

Paul:

00:07-00:14

Erm. Going into hospital.

Lewis:

00:18-00:22

How did you get through it?

Paul:

00:28-00:31

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Claire:

00:34-00:36

You have staff to see you, didn’t you?

Paul:

00:36-00:36

Yeah.

Lewis:

00:41-00:44

Who helped you during that time?

Paul:

00:48-00:49

Sharell

Lewis:

00:58-01:02

How do you think people see disability?

Paul:

01:07-01:15

Some people. Some people don’t recognize disability.

Lewis:

01:17-01:20

How did you feel about it?

Paul:

01:26-01:38

People should be more vigilant.

Roy:

00:00-00:30

And then I, I had a nervous breakdown. I, I, my mind. I don’t know what happened to me, but me mind just went I just went barmy. I just went barmy. So I got admitted on a secure ward. I had electric treatment, ETC, electric treatment.

Will:

00:30-00:30

Yeah

Roy:

00:30-01:50

That’s where they put things and, and, I had that. I remember, It sort of put me right thinking, you know what I mean? And I had ETC, and then. But then I was thinking also before I had ETC, you know what I mean. Electric treatment. After I’d had that.

After I’d had that ETC, oh that cleared the head in that yeah. So I was thinking straight instead of thinking all sorts. It’s electric treatment you know what I mean?

Will:

01:50-01:51

Yeah I know what you mean.

Mark:

00:00-00:08

I know you went round a fair few secure hospitals in your 40 years. Which secure hospital did you go to first?

Teresa:

00:09-00:09

Oh,

Mark:

00:10-00:11

That you can remember.

Teresa:

00:12-00:14

I think it was St. George’s

Mark:

00:15-00:18

Okay. Whereabouts is St George’s?

Teresa:

00:18-00:19

Is it Morpeth?

Mark:

00:19-00:32

Morpeth. Right. Okay. So relatively local. And was there an element of being moved from pillar to post with with?

Teresa:

00:32-00:34

Well, it did unsettle me a bit and I did see some sights, you know.

Mark:

00:35-00:38

Yeah, because you moved around

Teresa:

00:38-00:38

Yeah

Mark:

00:39-00:45

a fair bit. Have you got any sort of idea or recollection of how many different hospitals you finished up in?

Teresa:

00:45-00:49

God knows how long. I couldn’t even begin to start there.

Mark:

00:49-01:04

No, I know you can remember a few, but. Yeah, it’s a lot. It’s a long time, isn’t it? What do you reckon was roughly the average amount of time that you spent in each hospital?

Teresa:

01:04-01:06

Roughly about two, three year.

Mark:

01:07-01:19

Right. So you probably looking at a dozen or 15 hospitals potentially over the time, and some of them, I think, were quite a long way away from home.

Teresa:

01:19-01:23

Yes. One was at the Norfolk Broads and one was Rampton.

Mark:

01:26-01:57

Yeah, Rampton has something of a reputation. Do you want to. If you’re happy to. Or happy is not the right word, if, if you’re okay with it. Do you want to tell us a little bit about what the regime was in places like Rampton, how they dealt with the patients?

Teresa:

01:58-02:45

Well, I was in there, like, I think, going on for three year. Excuse me. And I was also, like, on no medication at all when I first went there. Then they put me on medication and they gave me like a dose of. What do you call it? ECT. And I still say from this day, that set my head a bit funny. You know, I had six doses of that, then I was restrained a lot, put in seclusion a lot. Basically, I spent the majority of the time on my own in these places.

Mark:

02:48-02:56

So none of that sounds very much like they were trying to make you better.

Teresa:

02:56-02:57

I know.

Mark:

02:59-03:05

So what. What what were they trying to achieve by treating you in that way?

Teresa:

03:05-03:16

As I said, I was suffering with depression and I knew I wasn’t. But, you know, you can say no and I can still give you the treatment.

Mark:

03:17-03:25

Well, yes, because you. Because you were under. Because you were under section, which was the big problem.

Teresa:

03:25-03:44

And from the last place, I wasn’t on a section either. But then the doctor I’d seen. Dr. Rowbotham. She said, would you like to stay on your section or off it? Naturally you’re going to say off it, aren’t you? But then the next day, the doctor was quick out to come and stick us back on it. So.

Mark:

03:48-03:57

So what. I mean, how do you, how do you feel about the way that you were. You. You were treated and the people who treated you like that?

Teresa:

03:58-04:39

I still say I go through a lot of heartache with it because, you know, things have happened that you don’t forget. It’s not a thing that you can push into the carpet because it’ll always come back in your mind, you know, what you’ve been through, where you’ve been and what’s happened here. It’s a thing that you can’t like say to yourself, I’ll just forgot about that. I’m out of there now. Because you never forget it, you know, once you’ve had the treatment that I was getting, then it stays with you. You try and block it and it goes away for a while, but it always comes back to the front of your mind, you know, scenes and that and the pictures and things.